Friday, July 28, 2006

this is the title....


sorry. hmmm... in a weird hyperish but not really mood.

yay!!! i've got new songs on my mp3 player!! thanks aaron....
*i write sins not tragedies!!!!*
*geek in the pink!!!*

meeting my syc friends later... going home reallllllly late today coz of that........ *whoops. need to call home and let them know* =) =) =)

sometimes i just don't deserve what is being given to me...... i am sorry to all those people whom i have deprived of opportunities since i can't take full advantage of all the oppprtunities given to me.................

i am happy that i am in IJ but i am soooo not too...

could life have been better somewhere else? is this part of fate or really a consequence of just my choices???

would i have had the same experiences somewhere else?????

it's not always about me is it.....

why do i waste the abilities that God has given to me???

WAKE UP GIRL!!! there's no more time for slacking and saying that tomorrow is soon enough....

why is it so easy to lose whatever momentum i once had...

MAYBE I'M NOT SMART................. MAYBE I'M JUST LUCKY..... has that thought ever occurred??

don't judge me by the little stuffs. don't be impressed when i am not impressed with myself.

i am constantly disappointed in myself. but i never make a move to change. what does that make me??

maybe i am just too sensitive

an onion is exposed when you peel away its skin.
an onion's inside is different from what its skin hints
an onion's colour is different from what you see outside.
i am like that onion.
don't peel away my skin.
i am not ready to be exposed when my skin is peeled.
i don't think you are ready to see what i am really like inside.
my inner colour is something i need to keep to myself. for now.
i am like an onion.
please don't peel away my skin.


this post is just something that needed to be written. before i explode. it's just what's running through my mind. the "poem" was something i wrote two days ago.

Monday, July 24, 2006


isn't 100 such a round number??? sigh. 100 days to a levels... (if you can trust the countdown thingy at my school.) freaky!!!

sooo... a really really short entry coming up... [s]what the hell lah. i don't have internet at home and they set REAP hmwk on MLG. now is 3.04pm and i have to do 2 full length essays. BY 5pm. when i would be fully occupied from 3.10-4.40. sheesh... [/s]

first: shout out to the pple i played pool with on 17/7: faiz, zul, filzah, wani, sufie, faizal, adib.
it was fun!! if not for the fact that a levels is coming up, we should go again. But we still haven't gone bowling!!!

second: yesterday's "bbq" with my 1st 3 mth frenz: wei ling, zara, yeda, joanne, rekha.
Go out again soon ok?? maybe to study???

that's all. malay class now...


Thursday, July 06, 2006


7 Random Facts About Me:
- When i am sick/tired i'll be really cranky.
- I miss being able to be really sarcastic coz now i'm sooo out of touch.
-Queen of procrastination, that's me
-i actually do like economics (does that make me weird or really weird???)
-I enjoy saying/doing the craziest stuff
-Everyday, I miss the people at SYC 2005, even though it was like more than 6 months ago
-my friends are the light of my life while my family is the rock

7 Things That Scares Me:
- God
- Not being able to meet my expectations of myself.
- Losing my identity
- not being able to cope with things in life
- losing my inner strength
- being without my friends and family
- the A levels. (seriously)

7 Random Music At The Moment:
- I wish i was a puck rocker with flowers in my hair, Sandi Thom
- do i make you proud, taylor hicks (believe it or not...)
- promiscuous, nelly furtado featuring timberland
- I write sins not tragedies, panic at the disco
- everytime we touch, piano version; cascada
- almost here, delta goodrem and bryan mcfadden
- life is wonderful, jason mraz

7 Things I Like:
- my (in dunno what condition) mp3 player
- my auntie's ayam masak merah!!! *sigh. just ate it yesterday* ==> actually most of the food she cook also lah. haha
- the library near my house. hehe.
- fiction books!!!!!!
- tv
- radio

7 Things I Say The Most:
- bullshit
-nonsense (coz i can't say bullshit at home)
- you are kidding me right?
- hmmm... i think so....
- what seh
- i'm bored
- do you think i care?

7 People To do this :
anybody who feels like it?? haha. can't really come up with a list.